Everybody has their good days and bad days. Today, for me, was a bad day. All the things that I normally push out of my head just flooded me today. Basically I just really miss my friends, and family. I don't have anybody to hang out with except the guy. That's another thing right there.
I get the very distinct feeling that he isn't attracted to me, and is therefore distancing himself from me. Maybe I'm wrong, but I'm pretty sure I'm not. He is just so damn hard to read. I wish that if this were the case he would just be upfront with me. I honestly do like him. I just don't think he likes me. I would rather be alone, then be with somebody who is just being with me to pass time.
I know that being in Louisville will ultimately be better for me, but right now its hard.
Sunday, March 8
Saturday, March 7
I need a pick me up!!! So tired
Hooray for Saturday!!! Not really, I have to work late. I really detest my job, but I go in, and do what is required of me. I woke up at 8:45 this morning. Only a little over 6 hours sleep for me. I felt fine. For breakfast I made:
2 egg whites on Ezekiel Sesame bread with hot sauce. Then good old Emergen-C. Which I need to buy more of.
Off to the gym I went. I was on the cross-trainer for half an hour and noticed a whole bunch of people holding yoga mats filtering in. I checked the schedule and sure enough, I had enough time to go to my car, grab my mat and do my lovely hour long yoga. It still wasn't good yoga.
I really miss my old studio in Fayetteville. Om Yoga Studio was good. Katherine was my favorite teacher. I still need to make time to go do Bikrams. I'm already sure that I'll hate/love it. You know you absolutely just want to pack your stuff and leave in the middle of class, but you persevere and then at the end you're glad you stayed because you feel awesome. At least I get those feelings.
Came home did a bit of cleaning around the house. Then made this for lunch:
Clockwise from top: Spinach, spicy Kimchi, and Hummus.
My brother came and got his huge TV that I kept in my living room, and replaced it with a smaller 32 inch. The other was so much nicer, at least this one is a flat screen as well. Also, since it's smaller I could move the furniture around. I like this layout better. This is the one I'd wanted to do before, but couldn't due to the huge TV. Again, I'll post pics once the new tables arrive.
Time to get ready for work. BLAHHH!!! I really wish the guy would come visit me once in a while. That would be nice, doubt it though.
2 egg whites on Ezekiel Sesame bread with hot sauce. Then good old Emergen-C. Which I need to buy more of.
Off to the gym I went. I was on the cross-trainer for half an hour and noticed a whole bunch of people holding yoga mats filtering in. I checked the schedule and sure enough, I had enough time to go to my car, grab my mat and do my lovely hour long yoga. It still wasn't good yoga.
I really miss my old studio in Fayetteville. Om Yoga Studio was good. Katherine was my favorite teacher. I still need to make time to go do Bikrams. I'm already sure that I'll hate/love it. You know you absolutely just want to pack your stuff and leave in the middle of class, but you persevere and then at the end you're glad you stayed because you feel awesome. At least I get those feelings.
Came home did a bit of cleaning around the house. Then made this for lunch:
Clockwise from top: Spinach, spicy Kimchi, and Hummus.
My brother came and got his huge TV that I kept in my living room, and replaced it with a smaller 32 inch. The other was so much nicer, at least this one is a flat screen as well. Also, since it's smaller I could move the furniture around. I like this layout better. This is the one I'd wanted to do before, but couldn't due to the huge TV. Again, I'll post pics once the new tables arrive.
Time to get ready for work. BLAHHH!!! I really wish the guy would come visit me once in a while. That would be nice, doubt it though.
Busy Busy Bee
The doctor went fine. Got the prescription I needed to get refilled. This doctor was new and he passed the test with me. He did not cut me off, which I hate when they do that. We talked for a while, and he didn't try to rush me out of there, so that made me happy. He also got my referral to see an Orthopedic doctor because of my injury in the Army. Which I still hurt from, and it makes me sad that I can't even run. Which I did do the other day, and I've been in pain since then, and its been at least a week. So maybe this doctor will be able to help me, or least tell me if my bones have seen any progress in healing.
Before the doctor I went and had lunch with Paul (my brother, in case I haven't mentioned his name yet) at Texas Roadhouse. I had no clue TR was open for lunch, I think they just changed their hours. I did not eat a single roll, drank water and ate all vegetarian.
I didn't even touch the green beans. I was too full, there was also a Cesar salad.
After the doc I shot over on to Walgreens and dropped off the prescription. I had a lot of extra time before work so I figured I could go to the gym. I did the elliptical for an hour, then headed home and got ready for work. I got there right on time. I ate one of these bad boys on the way to work:
I was smart enough to take the picture before I was in the car. I've also stopped most of my texting in the car too. I only do it at stop lights now.
Work was a drag. I did get the chance to catch up on some very interesting news articles. I can already say that I'm pleased with Obama. He went ahead and lifted the ban that Bush's administration had placed on publicly funded stem-cell research. He also reversed a lot of Bush's policies and plans for our environment. Obama is doing a great job in my book.
Now I'm home, in my awesome SV swim team sweats. I am now using my strongest will-power not to eat late at night. Doing this especially in the last month has really stopped my weight loss progress. Its just I work so late, and after working anywhere between 5-9 hours I want to come home and eat. What I make is normally not the best for me, or too much of what is good for me. So tomorrow I'm going to plan a menu for the week, that way I can pre-make some of the food to just reheat later. This will also reduce the amount of stuff that I throw away. I don't know why I didn't think to do this earlier. At least its getting done now.
I want to get up early tomorrow and get a work out in before me and the guy go antiquing. I like that he lets me drag him to these places. If I made enough from tonight I would like to find a really cool old metal sign.
Before the doctor I went and had lunch with Paul (my brother, in case I haven't mentioned his name yet) at Texas Roadhouse. I had no clue TR was open for lunch, I think they just changed their hours. I did not eat a single roll, drank water and ate all vegetarian.
I didn't even touch the green beans. I was too full, there was also a Cesar salad.
After the doc I shot over on to Walgreens and dropped off the prescription. I had a lot of extra time before work so I figured I could go to the gym. I did the elliptical for an hour, then headed home and got ready for work. I got there right on time. I ate one of these bad boys on the way to work:
I was smart enough to take the picture before I was in the car. I've also stopped most of my texting in the car too. I only do it at stop lights now.
Work was a drag. I did get the chance to catch up on some very interesting news articles. I can already say that I'm pleased with Obama. He went ahead and lifted the ban that Bush's administration had placed on publicly funded stem-cell research. He also reversed a lot of Bush's policies and plans for our environment. Obama is doing a great job in my book.
Now I'm home, in my awesome SV swim team sweats. I am now using my strongest will-power not to eat late at night. Doing this especially in the last month has really stopped my weight loss progress. Its just I work so late, and after working anywhere between 5-9 hours I want to come home and eat. What I make is normally not the best for me, or too much of what is good for me. So tomorrow I'm going to plan a menu for the week, that way I can pre-make some of the food to just reheat later. This will also reduce the amount of stuff that I throw away. I don't know why I didn't think to do this earlier. At least its getting done now.
I want to get up early tomorrow and get a work out in before me and the guy go antiquing. I like that he lets me drag him to these places. If I made enough from tonight I would like to find a really cool old metal sign.
Friday, March 6
Doctor Appointment Today
I just woke up a little bit ago. I hate having a job where I work so late. This was my dinner last night, and it was about midnight when I had it.
Spinach fettuccine with an awesome Puttanesca. It was very good, I would of much rather had it at a decent hour. I will be starting my new job soon hopefully. I will give more details soon.
Sleep came easy last night. I swear I had the oddest dream. In the dream I was a lesbian in the process of breaking up with my girlfriend. Then somehow being at the Zoo came into the picture. I can assure you that I'm not a lesbian. That is one thing I am sure of.
Here was the Breakfast for today.
That is oat bran, almond butter, and granola. Still a little blah. Also, the Emergen-C that is only sort of working.
I am now about to head to gym for about an hour then come home and get ready for the doctor.
Spinach fettuccine with an awesome Puttanesca. It was very good, I would of much rather had it at a decent hour. I will be starting my new job soon hopefully. I will give more details soon.
Sleep came easy last night. I swear I had the oddest dream. In the dream I was a lesbian in the process of breaking up with my girlfriend. Then somehow being at the Zoo came into the picture. I can assure you that I'm not a lesbian. That is one thing I am sure of.
Here was the Breakfast for today.
That is oat bran, almond butter, and granola. Still a little blah. Also, the Emergen-C that is only sort of working.
I am now about to head to gym for about an hour then come home and get ready for the doctor.
Thursday, March 5
Cabo Wabo
There is some S&M party going on at my work tonight. It is being sponsored by Cabo Wabo tequila. Thank goodness employees don't have to dress up. We just get a really cute pink shirt to wear that they supplied. Once it gets started I'll get camera happy.
Went to the dentist today. My teeth are in perfect health. I have a doc appt tomorrow. So we shall see how the rest of me is holding up. So far my efforts on combatting the sickness seem useless. It is slowly getting the better of me. I will not surrender and let the germs prevail. I shall be victorious. I sound like braveheart haha.
I really want to make it to Bikrams tomorrow. Not sure since I'll be here till about 3. Then the doc appt before work. It's also pretty expensive. They have a "first week" for $25. Where as a single class is $15. So I'll do that. I just want to make sure I'll have time the whole week. So I can get my moneys worth. That's all for now. I should update with pics later.
UPDATER: This S&M party was not advertised very well, or at all for that matter. So there were no people ready to party like that at all. There was even a Pure Romance sales rep that had a booth set up. I felt bad for the girl, nobody bought anything from her. Supposedly its going to happen every Thursday night for the next couple of weeks. Who knows, maybe I'll buy something.
Went to the dentist today. My teeth are in perfect health. I have a doc appt tomorrow. So we shall see how the rest of me is holding up. So far my efforts on combatting the sickness seem useless. It is slowly getting the better of me. I will not surrender and let the germs prevail. I shall be victorious. I sound like braveheart haha.
I really want to make it to Bikrams tomorrow. Not sure since I'll be here till about 3. Then the doc appt before work. It's also pretty expensive. They have a "first week" for $25. Where as a single class is $15. So I'll do that. I just want to make sure I'll have time the whole week. So I can get my moneys worth. That's all for now. I should update with pics later.
UPDATER: This S&M party was not advertised very well, or at all for that matter. So there were no people ready to party like that at all. There was even a Pure Romance sales rep that had a booth set up. I felt bad for the girl, nobody bought anything from her. Supposedly its going to happen every Thursday night for the next couple of weeks. Who knows, maybe I'll buy something.
Wednesday, March 4
Project Desk: 101
Happy Hump Day!!! Oh, if that were true. Today was full of adventures for me, and pictures for you.
My day started off with a bowl of yogurt with grapes, granola, and goji mix-ins.
I worked on the desk. Then when the assembly portion was over I went to a few stores to get accessories for it. Stopped by Calistoga first and got the yummiest sandwich ever.
At Home Depot I returned a few things that I ended up not using on the desk project. I also bought two small plants. I will now be conducting an experiment to see how long it takes to kill them.
Then Big Lots, this store was not on the planned agenda but I saw it and swooped in. I am so glad I did, I bought an awesome rug for my living room. I will post pictures just as soon as the new tables arrive. Also some little decoration thingy for the table. Then for the piece de le resistance Home Goods. This is where I picked up an awesome lamp. I almost bought a similar one at Big Lots for $30 MORE. Haha, glad I didn't. A good pillow, picture frame, and chair. I also got some knick knacks for my kitchen. All in all the Home Goods store cost me $135. I didn't want a typical computer chair. I wanted some a bit more contemporary, and sleek.
So here it is
I have to admit that I am pretty darn proud of myself. It took forever. I went up to my work just have dinner with my bro. I get half off. Got a super yummy salad.
You can see my brothers greasy food on the left. My salad was spinach based, with a pinot noir shallot vinegairette. Topped with dried cranberries, walnuts, roasted corn, onions, tomatoes, mushrooms, feta, and apple slices. All in all "pure heaven".
I did not make it home in time for my Bikrams yoga, its all good and well though. My arms and legs are pretty sore from yesterdays workout. I'm going to relax now and watch some lovely T.V.
My day started off with a bowl of yogurt with grapes, granola, and goji mix-ins.
I worked on the desk. Then when the assembly portion was over I went to a few stores to get accessories for it. Stopped by Calistoga first and got the yummiest sandwich ever.
At Home Depot I returned a few things that I ended up not using on the desk project. I also bought two small plants. I will now be conducting an experiment to see how long it takes to kill them.
Then Big Lots, this store was not on the planned agenda but I saw it and swooped in. I am so glad I did, I bought an awesome rug for my living room. I will post pictures just as soon as the new tables arrive. Also some little decoration thingy for the table. Then for the piece de le resistance Home Goods. This is where I picked up an awesome lamp. I almost bought a similar one at Big Lots for $30 MORE. Haha, glad I didn't. A good pillow, picture frame, and chair. I also got some knick knacks for my kitchen. All in all the Home Goods store cost me $135. I didn't want a typical computer chair. I wanted some a bit more contemporary, and sleek.
So here it is
I have to admit that I am pretty darn proud of myself. It took forever. I went up to my work just have dinner with my bro. I get half off. Got a super yummy salad.
You can see my brothers greasy food on the left. My salad was spinach based, with a pinot noir shallot vinegairette. Topped with dried cranberries, walnuts, roasted corn, onions, tomatoes, mushrooms, feta, and apple slices. All in all "pure heaven".
I did not make it home in time for my Bikrams yoga, its all good and well though. My arms and legs are pretty sore from yesterdays workout. I'm going to relax now and watch some lovely T.V.
Tuesday, March 3
Fluffy Yoga pt. deux
I felt like I'd been run over by a truck when I woke up this morning. That feeling eventually dissipated. I got a decent amount accomplished. I started off with a yummy 3 egg, spinach, asparagus, omelet that I wrapped in an Ezekiel tortilla. Topped with sour cream and hot sauce.
Then it was onto the mundane tasks that I've been putting off forever. For instance organizing all my files and putting them in a central location....a filing cabinet. Also, I put a second coat of stain on the soon to be built desk. It's starting to come along nicely. I'm excited for when it will be finished.
I went to Whole Foods for dinner. Got some super yummy food. Vegan sweet & sour "chicken", brown basami rice, some veggies, and temph. The temph was a bit odd but I ended up liking it.
After this it was time for the gym. I went to the yoga class. It was better than the last time I able to attend it at the gym. Still, I am completely unimpressed with it. They only have classes twice a week. Tues, and Thurs. This is the first Tuesday I've had off since I started, and I always work Thursdays too. I decided to check out a studio close by. They have a few different style bikrams, vinyasa, yin yoga, and a yoga core class. All of them are done in a hot room like traditional bikrams. I'm going to try it.
Its been exactly 14 days since I've quit smoking. I still haven't noticed the taste or smell difference. I can breathe better. I still want to eat all the time. I go for gum quite a bit still. I was in the car with my brother and he was smoking, all I wanted to do was just smoke one. I know that I would be back to my old habits if I even took one hit. So I abstained. I'm proud of myself for it. Its still going to be a long battle.
Now I'm just hanging out at the apt watching Boondock Saints. Gonna try to do one more load of laundry and go to sleep.
Then it was onto the mundane tasks that I've been putting off forever. For instance organizing all my files and putting them in a central location....a filing cabinet. Also, I put a second coat of stain on the soon to be built desk. It's starting to come along nicely. I'm excited for when it will be finished.
I went to Whole Foods for dinner. Got some super yummy food. Vegan sweet & sour "chicken", brown basami rice, some veggies, and temph. The temph was a bit odd but I ended up liking it.
After this it was time for the gym. I went to the yoga class. It was better than the last time I able to attend it at the gym. Still, I am completely unimpressed with it. They only have classes twice a week. Tues, and Thurs. This is the first Tuesday I've had off since I started, and I always work Thursdays too. I decided to check out a studio close by. They have a few different style bikrams, vinyasa, yin yoga, and a yoga core class. All of them are done in a hot room like traditional bikrams. I'm going to try it.
Its been exactly 14 days since I've quit smoking. I still haven't noticed the taste or smell difference. I can breathe better. I still want to eat all the time. I go for gum quite a bit still. I was in the car with my brother and he was smoking, all I wanted to do was just smoke one. I know that I would be back to my old habits if I even took one hit. So I abstained. I'm proud of myself for it. Its still going to be a long battle.
Now I'm just hanging out at the apt watching Boondock Saints. Gonna try to do one more load of laundry and go to sleep.
Monday, March 2
Bad Me
I am very ashamed of myself today. No good eats at all. Today had to been the unhealthiest day I've had all year. The only semi-decent thing I had was the half sized salmon, rice, and sweet potato I had at Logans for lunch with Paul. Which was the first thing I had. Then the second item I had was Ezekiel 4.9 Cinnamon Raisin cereal. It reminded me of Grape Nuts. I did like it though. All else was bad. No gym as well, so ashamed.
I started building a custom desk for a very odd space in my apartment. I'm taking pictures of the process, so when it is accomplished I will post a slide-show. Then I brought the guy some some medicine, Emergen-C, and soup. I hope he feels better, and also that he doesn't make me sick.
Since I've completely destroyed my body today, I'm definitely hitting the gym tomorrow. Which reminds me that I need to update my iPhone. Do the second coat of stain on the wood. Then laundry.
I started building a custom desk for a very odd space in my apartment. I'm taking pictures of the process, so when it is accomplished I will post a slide-show. Then I brought the guy some some medicine, Emergen-C, and soup. I hope he feels better, and also that he doesn't make me sick.
Since I've completely destroyed my body today, I'm definitely hitting the gym tomorrow. Which reminds me that I need to update my iPhone. Do the second coat of stain on the wood. Then laundry.
Sunday, March 1
Heavenly faux chicken
I did not mind work today. Actually woke up before the alarm went off. I got off at 4, like I was scheduled. I was worried they were going to keep me there all day, like they normally do.
I went shopping. Yes, me actually went shopping. Not on groceries, or household needs either. I bought 6, shirts. It was a good sale day at NY & Company, I also had a coupon. i just grabbed my receipt out of my purse, to see exactly how much I saved. My total would have been $176. 69, but I ended up only spending $111.57. So I'm happy that I finally got some new clothes, 1 work shirt included.
Then I went to Whole Foods. Bought some goodies. I have realized something. Every time I screw up food it is always meat. So, although not a complete vegetarian, everything that I bought was vegetarian, or vegan.
The only thing I'd eaten all day was a Clif bar. So I decided to go to the hot bar at WH. I got this yummy food. It was General Tsau's "chicken". Only it was fake chicken. Honestly, it tasted better than any other Chinese chicken I've ever had, the meatball was fake too. There were roasted veggies, rice and a veggie eggroll as well. Perfectly filling, it seems like a lot, but they were all in small portions. It was heaven, truly.
Now I'm at home, and actually getting to relax. I have plans on doing the exact same thing all of tomorrow. Except that I'll be going to gym.
Today was kind of a sad day for me too. I think that one of the reasons I haven't been shopping is because I have nobody to do it with. This was something I normally would do with Ashley, or Larissa if Izzy would allow it. I hope that my stuff looks good, since I had no feedback.
I need to put up my groceries now.
I went shopping. Yes, me actually went shopping. Not on groceries, or household needs either. I bought 6, shirts. It was a good sale day at NY & Company, I also had a coupon. i just grabbed my receipt out of my purse, to see exactly how much I saved. My total would have been $176. 69, but I ended up only spending $111.57. So I'm happy that I finally got some new clothes, 1 work shirt included.
Then I went to Whole Foods. Bought some goodies. I have realized something. Every time I screw up food it is always meat. So, although not a complete vegetarian, everything that I bought was vegetarian, or vegan.
The only thing I'd eaten all day was a Clif bar. So I decided to go to the hot bar at WH. I got this yummy food. It was General Tsau's "chicken". Only it was fake chicken. Honestly, it tasted better than any other Chinese chicken I've ever had, the meatball was fake too. There were roasted veggies, rice and a veggie eggroll as well. Perfectly filling, it seems like a lot, but they were all in small portions. It was heaven, truly.Now I'm at home, and actually getting to relax. I have plans on doing the exact same thing all of tomorrow. Except that I'll be going to gym.
Today was kind of a sad day for me too. I think that one of the reasons I haven't been shopping is because I have nobody to do it with. This was something I normally would do with Ashley, or Larissa if Izzy would allow it. I hope that my stuff looks good, since I had no feedback.
I need to put up my groceries now.
Fizzy sickness
How the hell do you screw up a pot roast cooked in a crock pot. well I managed to do it. It was a bit dry, and I should have added more spices. We still ate it though.
Work sucked tonight. I went in at 4, and the other host was scheduled for 7. Well, 10 minutes before her shift she called out. I let the managers know how pissed I was. When I wouldn't be able to make it to work I would let them know a few days ahead, at least much earlier in the day. She just had no plan on showing up. We were busy, and I got my butt kicked, but I handled it well, and didn't get frazzled. So since I was the only one there my tip share should be decent. My boss wouldn't let go until after 1. TOTAL bullshit. I'd already been there since 4, I also have to be there at noon tomorrow. Not happy that next weekend I am the only host who has to work both Fri and Sat.
I am getting sick. My right adenoid is swollen and hurts. I don't know why they just didn't take them out when they took out my tonsils in '07. So I took my immune boosting supplements. It reminds me of Tang, ugghhh.
The other night was fun. We both got drunk. I hadn't been drunk in so long. Good times. I tried to get a pic of him, but he blocked his face with his camera. Camera war, haha.
Earlier I got to catch up on the latest 3 episodes of Burn Notice, so that was nice. I really love that show. Its my second favorite, Entourage is first. It's bed time now.
Work sucked tonight. I went in at 4, and the other host was scheduled for 7. Well, 10 minutes before her shift she called out. I let the managers know how pissed I was. When I wouldn't be able to make it to work I would let them know a few days ahead, at least much earlier in the day. She just had no plan on showing up. We were busy, and I got my butt kicked, but I handled it well, and didn't get frazzled. So since I was the only one there my tip share should be decent. My boss wouldn't let go until after 1. TOTAL bullshit. I'd already been there since 4, I also have to be there at noon tomorrow. Not happy that next weekend I am the only host who has to work both Fri and Sat.
I am getting sick. My right adenoid is swollen and hurts. I don't know why they just didn't take them out when they took out my tonsils in '07. So I took my immune boosting supplements. It reminds me of Tang, ugghhh.
The other night was fun. We both got drunk. I hadn't been drunk in so long. Good times. I tried to get a pic of him, but he blocked his face with his camera. Camera war, haha.
Earlier I got to catch up on the latest 3 episodes of Burn Notice, so that was nice. I really love that show. Its my second favorite, Entourage is first. It's bed time now.
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