Tomatoes, Tomatos

The past couple of days have been very hectic. Most peoples weekends are my busiest days at work. I hate being a server. I was at the gym Saturday and most days I don't may much attention to how much time I have left. I'm normally in my zone/ own little world rocking out to my iPod. Nope not this time, I looked down after what I thought had been forever. Wrong, I had only been on my cross-trainer for 15 minutes, and still had 45 to go..It was agony, but I finished. Afterwards I had to go to work, I brought all my clothes and shower stuff. I had an extra 45 minutes to spare since I didnt have to drive home, and go all the way back to that side of town. I stopped at Whole Foods and decided to treat myself to some delicious Hot Bar.


Oh it was all so yummy. Vegan sweet and sour Chicken, pineapple Basmati rice, Bok Choy, and a Veggie Eggroll. It was 3/4 Lb of food.


I also picked up a couple of Bars. I tried this new one I saw for the first time. Raw Revolution-Chocolate Cashew flavor. It was pretty good, I did like that it didn't have the sticky consistency that the Raw Organic Food Bars have. I still love them though.









For a snack/ dinner Saturday night I had some Edemame and 3 dried Apricots. Not the best thing. It was 11 at night, I wasn't very hungry, and my cabinets are getting a little bare.


Last night I played poker with some of my boys at Mi Casa. I did a rush cleaning last night, just dishes and tidying up the place. I normally come in 1st or 2nd, but I was second out last night, only had one good hand the whole time. So I'm out $20, but I had a good time with my boys.

I have today off of work, and I'm taking full advantage. I've gotten a jump start on my cleaning. I'm about to go to Hubers, its a family owned Farm and Restaurant. You can pick your own fruits and veggies. I've been told they are all organic, so I'm hoping that's correct. I also want to get a pumpkin. One to make pumpkin soup with, and the other I'll carve. I'll probably use the insides for pumpkin soup as well. I'm super excited, I've never been there before. It is time for me to get going.

Homemade Spaghetti Sauce and Margaritas on my roof

Last night after work, I waited on a friend to get off, and we came back to my place to hang. Since everybody at work knows I'm a vegetarian, most have avoided my cooking since it lacks Misery & Death. I've made food for some of them a few times. So I was in the mood to cook at 11 PM, I have an evening job. It gets kinda lonely always cooking for just yourself.

I decide to make some Gluten free Spelt Spaghetti, and I wanted to prove my prowess in the kitchen so my sauce is from scratch. 2 cans tomato sauce, 1 can tomato paste, and one large can peeled and stewed tomatoes. I added in a tube of the Gimme Lean sausage, and some minced garlic. Then a whole bunch of spices, oh yeah I also put in one of my favorite things of all time hot sauce. I would of loved to add in mushrooms, olives, and onions, but I literally created this in about 15 minutes start to finish. It was delicious. It almost reminded me of my mommas.

Martha and me ate, made a couple of margaritas. Popped the screen outta my living room window and climbed onto the first story roof of my building. Hung out, drunk the tequila thats been in my fridge for like 3 months now, and talked till about 4 in the morning. It was a blast.

My friend Martha and I work at a nice Italian restaurant, and my Spaghetti with "meat" sauce was way better, and way better for you. Sorry, no pics. It made for delicious leftovers today too, and tomorrow.

I've been pinching every dime I can lately. I am SOOO broke, its just not even funny. So I haven't gone out to get drinks with friends lately, no shopping. I'm gonna apply for a second job tomorrow. I have a few places in mind. I know the cheapest places to get all the stuff I buy. The only stuff I'm willing to pay high prices for are my organic veggies, and healthy foods. I've actually found some good-for-ya foods at Big Lots, and they are crazy CHEAP too. I know that sounds odd, but check it out. Then TJ Maxx has a lot of sauces, dressings, and things of nature from Trader Joes. I wish there was a Trader Joes close to Louisville.

I'm hoping to make a trip up to Cincinatti to the Ikea store in the next couple of weeks. I bought what I thought were these glass paneled lights that mount to the wall. I actually only bought the the glass panels, I didnt get the mounting wall brackets or the invisi-cords. I know I won't be able to make the trip to Cinci for at least a month or so.

I've been writing this blog for about 2 1/2 hours now. I was watching TrueBlood, and now I'm finishing up The Express. Not Pineapple Express. This movie is SOOOOOOO GOOD. I recommend it to everyone. It's just about over, so goodnight all.

Cutie

My days lately seem to blend all together lately. I worked out, did laundry, bank, chiropractor, work, dinner, dishes, TV.

For dinner I made some Morningstar Veggie Ribs, and then I had a Tofutti Cutie for dessert.

Nothing special going on in my life. I was talking to a guy but that fizzled out as fast as it started. It upsets me, I did and still do like him. He apparently doesn't feel the same way. So, what can ya do.

I'm pretty pissed about one thing though. One of my two best friends is getting married. But she didn't tell me, or answer any of my phone calls today. I found out from Facebook. What happened to actual human communication. I understand letting somebody that you're not all that close with know via FB, but she is my best friend, don't you think that letting me know is somewhat important?

I sometimes think back on the way my life used to be. When I was wild and crazy, life was a blast, and there was always a good story to be told. Now I feel boring, and more often than not I just wanna go home to my apartment, and chill, no drinking. I just miss it sometimes, you know. Most of the time I'm content, but I think all this goes back to me just missing NC, and the life I had there.

Err!!! Laundry Day

Good morning all! I've been up for an hour now, pretty good since I didn't go to bed till 4. I was just hanging out with coworkers and regulars up at my job after I got off last night till 2:30, and just couldn't wind down for a while afterwards. I had some of the most vivid dreams, they weren't bad but when I woke up I thought I was financially broke.


B-fast this morning, 1 egg, 2 egg white omelet with tomatoes, onions, and feta, topped with yummy hot sauce and pepper. I barely ate half. Grapes, that I didn't even touch, and some Emergen-C,



I've been feeling the sickness coming on for a few days now. That was the last of it. Gotta buy some more today. I also need to do laundry, and find a new laundry mat. I found a really nice one, where they don't have any gross people that always hit on you close to my house. Then I realized why, they charge $2.50 just to wash the clothes...I'll take being hit on by some gross guys to wash my laundry for 75 cents. I must be going, and I'll try to comment on blogs later on, I hope to have a bit of free time.

Back in Action

Hi all!!! I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for the obnoxiously long lack of blogging. Generally the only reason I get online is to blog, see what my friends are up to, and occasionally google something. I was too busy actually being with the friends to blog, so I figured my camera deserves a break.

My last post basically talked about the Kentucky Derby. It was a complete blast.

Last Tuesday, my first real day out of surgery I ended up going to a concert about 1 1/2 hours away to see Soulcrate and Mac Lethal (for the second time). They are very underground white hip hop artists. Their music is very unconventional but I love it.



That is Soulcrate



My friend Larissa whom I went up there with and Mac. The pic of me and him was ridiculously blurry (sad).

He actually remembered us from the last time he played in NC, but we didn't get to chill with him this time. He's got a new song out called Undertow which you can find right here. Once u get past the first minute, it gets really fun to dance to.

Nothing too exciting happened while I was home. My foot actually started hurting a bit yesterday. I had my flight back home today, because my follow-up with the ortho doc was today. I was really hoping they would finally take the pin out of my foot. No dice, all they did was look at it. If I'd known that, I would have had them push it back a week, and I would have spent another week back home. I hate to say it, but I miss home A LOT. I just know that I can't move back there. I get too lazy, too comfortable in my routine of pretty much having a paycheck to paycheck job. That is not what I want out of life. There is just so much more for me here, and I need to keep reminding myself of this.

Oh and here is a pic of my broken self



I'm not going to lie, I was not the healthiest eater in the world while I was home. I did manage not to snack though. I am very proud to say that I only gained 1 Lb while on my trip, and considering I usually put on 10 Lbs. I live this super healthy life-style here in Louisville and lose weight, just to gain it back there, then have to lose it again. Its a horrible cycle. I am hoping that I finally broke it.

I can't put absolutely any excess weight or pressure on my foot. Walking for any more than a few steps kind of sucks, not because its painful, but I'm just super slow.

I went up to the Home Goods store, and I was really needing a new quilt (bedspread) because my down comforter is entirely to hot right now. I found this awesome organic cotton one, with matching pillows too. Lots of light blue and green. I love it

Now I'm back here finally, laying on top of my own bed, and its pretty nice. I need to go to Whole Foods, almost my entire stock of veggies went bad while I was gone.

I was super hungry for my dinner,there was nothing that I could have really made besides spinach fett, and vodka sauce.



It was nothing special, but I figured I should at least include 1 food pic.

At Last

Hi everybody. I've had an awesome past couple of days. My parents came up to Louisville, and we all went to the Kentucky Derby. It rocked, my mom and I both wore a big hat.




It was an absolute blast. I lost $30 on betting. My mom actually bet on the biggest longshot, Mine That Bird; number 8, and actually won some decent money. That horse had the worst odds 50-1 out of the entire derby. My mom was so happy. If I'd known that Borel was its jockey I would have bet him too. Borel rode the horse that won in '07, and 3rd in '08. Its all good though.

Sunday was spent showing my parents some cool stuff in Louisville, and we actually went on the Kentucky Bourbon Trail a little bit. We stopped at Heaven Hill Distillery and got a tour.

We all learned some really neat things about Bourbon. For instance it can only be called Bourbon if its made in Kentucky, otherwise its just Whiskey. That is a small pic of one of the warehouses. Each warehouse holds 20,000 barrels. Each at 500 Lbs. There are 49 warehouses. Heaven Hill produces Evan Williams, along with Americas oldsest Bourbon Elijah Craig. We were going to visit the Makers Mark and Jim Beam distillery too, but we were running short on time.

Then at the end of the tour they take you to get two free shots. One was an Evan Williams 12 year, and the other was an Elijah Craig 18 year.



It was a very nice trip, and I was so glad my parents really liked Louisville, and they are very proud of me, for moving away and trying to do something with my life.

Yesterday was my foot surgery, and then we drove back to NC. My foot doesn't even hurt. They gave me some percocets. I don't like taking them, I hate the feeling of being on drugs. I'm going to go up to Kohls in a little bit with my friend Ashley to buy a pair of shorts. Then we are just going to lounge around and hang out. I'm glad to finally see my friends and family again. I can only stay till the 12th. I have to be back in Louisville on the 13th to see my orthopedic doctor again.

I'll update again soon. Promise this time!!!

TGIF

TGIF everybody. Sorry about the lack of usual blogging. I've actually been out having a life for a bit of a change. Wednesday was an absolute blast, I forgot to take pics. I went out with two people from my work, Chris and Michelle. The night started out at Buffalo Wild Wings. I had a mojito, and 2 long islands. None of which were strong. Then we headed to Prime off of Main St, in downtown. It was $5 wine night, meaning the WHOLE BOTTLE, not just a glass. For being cheap, the wine was fabulous, we stuck with Chardonnay. 2 of their friends met us up there, and to keep it short and sweet, the night rocked. Got a bit tipsy, danced my face off, met a cute guy. Partied all night, quit drinking at 3. I didn't leave Chris's place till about 6.

Yesterday I woke up and had one of these bad boys. I'm so happy I didn't have a hangover. I never get them, which makes me very happy.


Cherry Pie is my favorite, followed very closely by Coconut Cream.

I decided to go visit one of my battle buddies from when I was in BCT. She lives a little over an hour away from me, in a tiny town in Indiana. It was nice to see her again. They have no decently good for you restaurants there, so we hit up Dennys...My meal was also not so good for me, french toast, and sausage.

Since I only had about 3 hours sleep on Wednesday night, I crashed out super early last night, I mean 8 PM. Then I didn't wake up till 9 this morning. I made a simple breakfast, and finally took a picture of something.

Oat bran flakes with 1 Tbs brown rice syrup and half scoop of chocolate protein powder, with almond milk. I made too much, so only managed to eat about half of it.

Now I've got all day to do as I choose with. I think I'm going to get ready and hit up the gym, then I'm not sure to do with the rest of it before I have to go to work at 4. Have a great day everybody.

Spin cycle

Thank goodness Tuesday is over. Although, mine wasn’t bad. As soon as I sat down to write this I completely forgot half of yesterday. So we’ll start with the part of yesterday that I do remember. I dropped off some old clothes at Goodwill, cleaned my car inside and out. She is beautiful once again. I picked up a few things from the old apartment. Then I went to Whole Foods for a real grocery-shopping trip. I got ton of goodness.


Whole wheat bread, oat bran, Brown rice syrup, organic canola oil, green chili peppers, a seafood spice rub, squash, bell peppers, artichoke hearts, cilantro, portabello mushroom caps, asparagus, sea salt, the most ripe strawberries I’ve ever had.


Baby carrots, compari tomatoes, almond milk, fresh clover honey, baby swiss, salmon stuffed with feta spinach and pinenuts, sea bass, saffron shallot butter, medijool dates, goat cheddar, eggplant, pear, sweet potatoes, fuji apples, spinach, red quinoa, and bananas.

While still at Whole Foods, I got some lunch.


Vegan general tsau’s “chicken”, garlic kale (no good), roasted veggies, then some fruit. I got a vitamin water with it.

I went to Hobby Lobby with a friend, came home, heated up Sundays' leftovers. I sautéed the spinach fett, roasted red peppers, and salmon all together. I think it was better than when I made it originally.

Last night was a sleepless night again. Instead of being lethargic I made good use of myself and went to the gym at 4:45. I got there an hour before spin, so here is my entire routine.

10 minute warm-up on cross-trainer, level 5, cross-ramp 10
STRETCHING
3 sets of 50 sit-ups on ball
3 sets of 50 crunches with legs elevated, on ball
3 sets of 50 bicycles, both sides equal 1, not 2
3 sets of 15 x-files
3 sets of 25 side bends with 10 Lb weight on each side
SPIN CLASS

I came home, made breakfast:



1 egg, 2 egg-white omelet with chili peppers, and hot sauce. Toast with Brown Rice Syrup, Tomatoes, which I sauteed. I started doing this after reading a tip from Oh She Glows. In one of her posts, she simply pointed out that the cancer fighting antioxidant lycopene in like a gazillion times more potent when the tomatoes are cooked as opposed to raw. Has anybody else ever tried Brown Rice Syrup? If so, what did you think. I liked it, small doses is definitely a rule of thumb for it.

The rest of my day was spent hanging with my friend Rob going to furniture auctions, I helped him buy clothes at an outlet mall. We also stopped my a peddlers mall, it sucked. He took me to a mediterranean cafe for lunch. I got a veggie platter. It consisted of grape leaves, spinach pie, fallafel, and hummus. (sorry, no pic) Rob ate almost half mine after he finished his chicken wrap. I was full, so it didn't matter.

I finally got to see Slumdog Millionaire, it was good. I was so tired though, and now I'm on the serious verge of collapsing on the computer. I've actually nodded off a few times. Goodnight all.

Belated Monday

Happy Tuesday all!! This post was supposed to be sent out yesterday, but I have no internet at either apartment right now. These past few days have been super hectic. I really want this move to be over with. I have almost everything out of the apartment that I want to keep. Now I just have to throw away stuff, paint, and clean. I only have a few things left to unpack. I’m just ready for all of this to be done. I’m pretty sure that I didn’t eat breakfast this morning. Lunch was a shared pizza with my friend; pepperoni, mushrooms, and olives. I don’t even feel that bad about it.

Dinner was much better. I heated up half a can of Amy’s Split Pea Soup. It tasted a bit like baby food, so I added some crushed up pita chips for texture. I didn’t have any crackers. Then after almost an hour of cooking I finally got to eat my Amy’s Stuffed Shells. It was basically an Amy’s extravaganza.



Saturday was a bit more fun. I conned a friend into helping me move all the heavy stuff. Then I had to do his dishes, and help him move in return. I was really no use. He packed everything so heavy, I couldn’t lift a thing. Ha-ha. Afterwards we somewhat celebrated and went to Kashmir. I got the Baingan Bartha. The The Fitnessista always raves about it. OMG!!! It was delicious!!! Thank you Gina! My friend liked it better than his Lamb Marsala (not pictured).



Yesterdays lunch was a-freaking-mazing!!! I went to Calistoga, and got a Monterrey Veggie Wrap. It had hummus, roasted red peppers, feta, carmelized red onions, spinach, kalamata olives, and a whole bunch of other goodness that I can't even remember. I ate half, and brought the rest home to snack on later. Honestly, the best sandwich/wrap I've ever had.


Last night after the endless day of unpacking, I relaxed by watching both Harold and Kumar’s and drank. I never drink by myself, but boy did I drink. I had Three Olives Vodka watermelon flavor, mixed with Fresca soda. They were delicious.

Right now, I’m just finishing up watching Twilight (again). I swear I really want my own personal vampire to come save me. I can’t wait till the next one comes out. Does anybody know when that will be?

I’ve got my ortho appt today, so I finally get to find out the results of my bone scan, and see how my legs are doing. Since I’ve quit the cardio lately my legs haven’t hurt in the past couple of days, minus a couple of random twinges of pain. That is all for now.

Bright Shiny Morning

Hello all!!! I must inform you that I'm not singing the "I hate Mondays" song today. Although it started out bad. NO sleep, thats right, not a wink. I don't think my insomnia issues are coming back, I mostly blame it on Breaking Dawn. Haha.
Today was a lucky sock kind of day. I know it may sound a bit odd to some of you, but whenever I need the odds to be in my favor I wear one of my "lucky" items. I'm not superstitious by no means, other than lucky socks, hat, and shirt.

I got the bone scan. I'm radioactive till about 9:00 tomorrow night. The screen was showing the cracks. It's not the first time I've had this done. They are definitely there, not as prominent as they were when the original injury occured last May. I just want to be back to normal, and able to work out, do cardio again. I really miss yoga the most. I meet with my doc next week to discuss the "findings". I'm hoping that he will actually recommend yoga, since it is technically "bone strengthening",and maybe he'll let me do some light cardio. More than anything I would love to tell me that I'm mentally insane, my legs are fine, and I'm imagining the pain. Then I would be happy, and could go on about my business, and workouts.

NOW FOR THE BEST PART OF MY DAY:


MECCA!!!!!!

I brought my friend Rob who had never been in Ikea either. We spent almost 5 hours in there. I had 1 shopping cart, and 2 push carts for big items. He got one chair.
I managed to haul out of there with all this. His enormous truck was packed full.


I hit the jackpot!!!!, only $680 for

1. Love seat
2. armchair
3. High backed chair
4. Cover for love seat
5. 2 Covers for high backed chair
6. Coffee Table
7. End Table
8. Floor lamp
9. 2 accent lamps
10. 3 pillows
11. Huge Rug
12. TV stand
13. Set of 3 cannisters
14. 100 pack of tealights ($3.50, almost the same price I'd pay at Walmart for a 10 pack)
    
15. Lint Roller (????)
16. 2 cushions for my kitchen chairs

Technically my kitchen chairs are my metal outdoor furniture. Since I don't technically have a porch, and they fit in perfect with my eclectic decor, I repurposed them. The table is turquoise, with a lime green, and hot pink chair.

I finally made it home around 10, and had to make some dinner. Its super late, but considering I didn't sleep last night, my metabolism is already shot for the day.


Veggie sausage link. I was sage apple flavored. I think the apple was much to strong. Also, the texture kind of weirded me out. The leftover rice was great though.

Tomorrow I have to go up to Home Depot and buy primer for this place and paint for the new place, along with the needed accessories. Like tarps, I really wish my mom could come up here and help me. She loves this kind of stuff as much as I do.

After the new place is painted I will start the assembly process of all the new stuff (ughhhh)

Jingling in my pocket

I had a super Saturday, and I hope that yours was great as well. Today was rather exciting in my book. I signed the lease to my new apartment. HOORAY. I'm going over there tomorrow to take pictures, and measurements. My brother said he didn't like it. I honestly don't care though. The only things he ever likes are shiny and new. I was so excited when my landlady gave me the keys.

Afterward I went to eat lunch with my friend Rob. We went out to Bluegrass Brewing Company, BBC for short. I got a turkey burger, it had an apricot-chipotle sauce. It was A-MAZING!!!! Then we drove to a bicycle shop over the border in Indiana. I want a vintage looking, brightly colored bike. I was so afraid they weren't going to have any in my eclectic style. As soon as i walked in, I was like a kid in a candy store!!

I like this one best: Its an Electra Townie 7D. It is so perfect, I just have to save my money for the next month or so, and it will be mine.


I should of taken a pic of it in the store, but I swear my friend will think I'm a total weirdo, since I'm pretty sure he is unaware of my blog. There were even optional baskets, and other things. I could so picture myself riding my bike along Bardstown Rd. My apartment is very close, and parking is crazy in that part of town. I am not a very good parallel parker. We from the south have never had to really learn.

I later went to see my bro, we hung out and played Bingo. It wasn't that fun this time. I get too mad, when they don't call my numbers. I know I shouldn't take it personally, but I do. I doubt I'll play again for a while.


Oh my goodness, I can't believe I almost forgot to mention this. I was offered almost the full PELL grant amount, and in addition to that another one, that pays for schooling to become a teacher. Which I would very much like to do. I would actually like to be a high school math teacher. I've always been good at it, and I figure I could be good at teaching it, and I would really like to make a difference. I'm so excited that everything is starting to come together.....FINALLY. Something else happened to me today that has me flying high on cloud 9, but you will have live through the suspense until it unfolds itself a bit more.
I'm going to curl up with my third installment on the Twilight series. Eclipse, I'm about halfway done already. I'm such an addict now, haha. Goodnight all. Pictures of the new apartment tomorrow. I promise

Pics Galore

I have decided to get a second job, since the good one isn't starting as soon as I had hoped. I finally found an apartment I liked, and put in an application. I'm going to look at another nice one tomorrow just in case I don't get this one. I'll start with yesterdays' eats. Today was pretty eventful, but we'll get to that in just a few.

For a snack I had a So Delicious Coconut Milk yogurt, which I added granola to. Lunch consisted of a yummy sandwich with Smart Deli Ham flavored tofu, jalepeno havarti, arugula, spicy mustard, and tomato, on an Ezekiel bun.


Dinner was a soup that was completely vegan, 100 calories, and pretty darn good


Today I started out with an apple and small banana smothered in almond butter


I finally got my dinette, coffee, and end tables removed. Yeah!!! I had to go over to a friends because his trucks battery died, so I helped out with that. In return I dragged him to look at apartments with me, and go to the bookstore. I was going to finally buy Eclipse, but I remembered it being $6 cheaper at Walmart, than Borders where I ventured today. We went to J. Gumbos at 4th street Live! It was delicious.

Crawfish Etouffee, it was covered over rice. It was a pretty good size, not huge, not too small but I still had to get a box. I managed to finish it before heading to work. I actually enjoyed it a bit today. Still going to look for another job though.

I honestly wish that my life was more interesting so that the pictures I take aren't just of food. Needless to say. This is my life, and in general I'm pretty content with it. I know that I have my bad days like everybody else. Mine just are a bit more frequent. It's understandable though, I moved to a new place where I have to completely restart my life, and its taking some time. I believe that I'm making slow (very slow) but steady progress to getting where I want to be.

Tomorrow I have to go up to UofL, to go see the financial aid office. I'm pretty sure that it will take majority of my day. Especially since I have to see a specific person about the teaching grants, and dealing with all my VA stuff. I really need to get some sleep. I'm just so nervous about this apartment though. I really hope that I get it. That is it for now. I will write soon. I also promise to make these a bit more exciting for those few of you who actually read this thing.

Blank Walls, Blank Canvas

Work today was simple and easy. I got a day shift, so I got off at 4:30. I spent some of my afternoon with Paul and Trendon. I am really beginning to miss home. I know it sounds sad and pathetic, but I just want to curl up on my moms couch and watch HGTV with her, or hang out on Larissas porch and SMOKE.

My only friend here is somebody that I sort of dated for like a month. He's a good friend to me, and I'm very thankful for that. Right now everything just seems so screwed up though. My legs are in PAIN, and I don't mean the take a couple days off, stretch, and motrin will take care of it, kind of pain. They hurt, and my insurance company is fucking me over. So now I'm trying to deal with them, and now since they are doing this shit. I'm going to apply for a med-board with the VA.



Every little thing I do hurts, pushing my clutch down, walking up my stairs, having to stand more than a few minutes. So at work I look for every opporotunity to sit that I can. I already know that I've got to stop on the cardio for a bit. I've got a doc appointment tomorrow, and one on monday or tuesday with my orthopedist. So we'll see what goes on. I'm also getting hell from my financial aid office at UofL. I swear, can I catch a freaking break?!?!?!?!?

I took down all the pictures and stuff from my walls. Started my decluttering process. I am getting rid of about half my purses. I'm also making sure to use up all the "almost empty" bottles of whatever from under my bathroom sink. Now is not the time for me to be wasteful.

I really want to tell my bosses to take me off the schedule for a week so I can just relax a bit, but I can't afford that right now. I also need to do it so I can take care of a whole bunch of errands. Like actually going to the VA, financial aid office, apartments.

I'm so freaking stressed out. I just want somebody here to calm me down, and tell me everything is going to be okay.

Oh, and its been exactly 1 month and 2 days since I quit smoking. Go me!!! I know that its stupid to base this on my current situation. But my life was in a lot better place when I was still smoking. My legs felt great, I wasn't having tons of money and apartment issues, I was still seeing the guy, before he turned into the friend. If anybody actually reads this, some encouraging, "dont smoke" calls should be coming from yall to me tomorrow.

Pick a side

Why can't people just choose a side and stay there. It seems that as soon as they make up their mind, they want the exact opposite. Well, my friend, it doesn't work like that.

Sorry for the lack of picture posts. Nothing I've made recently looks appetizing. I got my doc appt in a little bit. I had them reschedule from the 9:30 to a 2 o'clock. There was no way I could be up that early. It was another sleepless night. I'm just so tired, and work was a complete bore last night. I know tonight will be as well. At least tomorrow and Friday I get to work during the day. Then I get the weekend off. I requested it, so I can go look at apartments. Then to Ikea on Sunday. That is a maybe though. I gotta leave to go to the doc now.

Friendships....

I wish there was some type of proper guidelines on friendships. I seem to lose them all the time, as if we were walking down the street together and they fell down a man hole or something. Then others, seem to pop up out of nowhere.

So the guy and me are going to try to be friends. Seems to be working so far. He called me tonight and we talked. I was telling him about my living situation with my bro and how he is leaving to go to Ft. Stewart for a few months, and I'd have to come up with a LOT more rent money. Also, how I was looking for a roommate and posted an ad on craigslist. I really don't want a roommate, anybody who knows me, knows how well I do with them. So he recommended just looking for a much cheaper place. Which I did once I got home, and I talked to my bro about all this, and found out that he has official orders that send him down to GA. Therefore he can get out of this lease.

The whole lease thing was the main reason for my apprehension. I didn't want to leave and screw my brother with dealing foot the bill for that extra money. He is the only one on the lease, not me. So this way we can both safely get out. I already found a lot of great places that I put into a lovely spreadsheet by price, location, description, deposit fees, and whether they allow pets. Tomorrow me and Paul are going to talk about the apartment situation over lunch.

The guy is looking for a new apt as well. Its going to be pretty odd with both of us looking for separate apartments together. This is my first time trying to be friends with somebody I've been with, so I'm not quite sure on all the rules yet.

ANYWAYS

Yesterday I started my day off kind of late. Hit up the gym around 2, got in some cardio and then a pilates class. May I add that the pilates at my gym is much better than the yoga. I went to Kashmir and got the Malai Kofta, and a tandoori roti. It was delicious. I took a pic, but it is too blurry to even recognize.

Later I went to see Watchmen in IMAX. It rocked. After that is when all the bs from my last post happened.

Nothing exciting happened today. Got to see my little man T for a while. So that was nice, I got way too many phone calls this morning before I was ready to be awake. Tomorrow is going to be a very busy day. I have a doc appt., getting the new tables delivered, gym, and work.

Bad Day

Everybody has their good days and bad days. Today, for me, was a bad day. All the things that I normally push out of my head just flooded me today. Basically I just really miss my friends, and family. I don't have anybody to hang out with except the guy. That's another thing right there.

I get the very distinct feeling that he isn't attracted to me, and is therefore distancing himself from me. Maybe I'm wrong, but I'm pretty sure I'm not. He is just so damn hard to read. I wish that if this were the case he would just be upfront with me. I honestly do like him. I just don't think he likes me. I would rather be alone, then be with somebody who is just being with me to pass time.

I know that being in Louisville will ultimately be better for me, but right now its hard.

Heavenly faux chicken

I did not mind work today. Actually woke up before the alarm went off. I got off at 4, like I was scheduled. I was worried they were going to keep me there all day, like they normally do.

I went shopping. Yes, me actually went shopping. Not on groceries, or household needs either. I bought 6, shirts. It was a good sale day at NY & Company, I also had a coupon. i just grabbed my receipt out of my purse, to see exactly how much I saved. My total would have been $176. 69, but I ended up only spending $111.57. So I'm happy that I finally got some new clothes, 1 work shirt included.

Then I went to Whole Foods. Bought some goodies. I have realized something. Every time I screw up food it is always meat. So, although not a complete vegetarian, everything that I bought was vegetarian, or vegan.

The only thing I'd eaten all day was a Clif bar. So I decided to go to the hot bar at WH. I got this yummy food. It was General Tsau's "chicken". Only it was fake chicken. Honestly, it tasted better than any other Chinese chicken I've ever had, the meatball was fake too. There were roasted veggies, rice and a veggie eggroll as well. Perfectly filling, it seems like a lot, but they were all in small portions. It was heaven, truly.

Now I'm at home, and actually getting to relax. I have plans on doing the exact same thing all of tomorrow. Except that I'll be going to gym.

Today was kind of a sad day for me too. I think that one of the reasons I haven't been shopping is because I have nobody to do it with. This was something I normally would do with Ashley, or Larissa if Izzy would allow it. I hope that my stuff looks good, since I had no feedback.

I need to put up my groceries now.

Fat Tuesday can suck a Fat One

I was at work till just now. Honestly, don't these people have jobs to go to in the morning? Who the hell parties on a Tuesday, and Tuesday is always our busiest day of the week. Damn $2 Pint Night. I am exhausted. No work tomorrow, and the cleaning is minimal. I will definitely be sleeping in.

I was reading my Favorite Blog earlier, and she asked a question about what everybody was giving up for lent. I'm thinking to myself what can I give up, and work to improve myself on during the next 40 days?

I have come up with these 3 things:

1. STOP late night snacking
2. No more diet coke
3. Yoga EVERY day

Although I am not religious, I figure this to be a good time to improve myself. I think this because others will be doing the same thing, which in turn makes it easier. Also, if I can manage to go without cigarettes I can live without diet coke. I remember just a few weeks ago sitting around smoking my cigarette while drinking my dc. haha

I would also like to add that ASHLEY, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!! ITS ABOUT DAMN TIME!!!!

I believe it is bedtime now.

Emotional Ramblings of the undead

I've got so much that I want to get off my chest. My day started off horribly. Managed to get up at 8. I was so surprised my nephew was still asleep. I put him to bed at 9 last night. So I spent the next HOUR digging my car out from underneath 8 inches of snow and half inch of ice. So got T in the car at 9:15 and then my car wouldn't reverse. So I spent another 20 minutes kicking the snow out from behind my tires. So that way my tires would stop spinning in place. The drive wasn't too bad. My neighborhoods roads were nothing but ice. After I got out it was fine.

I spent my day lounging around, not getting no sex. BOOO!!! I went to dinner with my bro and nephew. We went to Texas Roadhouse, I wasn't really hungry so I just got a side caesar, and sweet potato. Then I got conned into babysitting. I thought I was going to be miserable. I put on Diego, and we both fell asleep after about half an hour. I only got an hour nap out of it, tucked T into bed. Left, got gas and caught the last 20 minutes of Save the Last Dance.

You know what creeps me out. Those Turbo Tax commercials with the dead presidents, and Ben Franklin.

So I got a friend request this evening from my ex-roommate/ ex-friend, Daphne. I'm not entirely sure why our friendship ended. I'll be the first one to admit that I am not good with roommates. I like things my way, and am not too great at compromising. There were other factors that I'm sure all factored into her just packing up and leaving one day. I just wish that we could of talked through our issues. The thing is, I really cared about that friendship. We were great friends, there for one another, and up until that day she moved out.

This brought me to thoughts of other friends, or better yet, or lack there of. My best friend in the world is Ashley. I highly doubt that will ever change. I wish we could talk more though, sometimes. I've lost a few friends recently. I don't understand how those ended either. I guess with one, Kelly, we just kind of grew apart. Our lives moved in different directions. The thing is, I still made an effort. The other, Larissa, everything was great. Hanging out all the time. Though every time I leave the area I guess my phone number is magically erased from her mind, and I guess when I call, my ringtone is set to silent. I am a good friend. I am always there for my friends when needed, or just wanted.

I would just really appreciate to have some of my friends back in my life. That would be nice.

Peek-A-Boo friends

This is a message to all of you. That is right. This is to every single one of my friends. I like to think I am a pretty good fucking friend. If you need a ride, whether it be to your boyfriends house, work, or just so YOU can go shopping I am there. I'm willing to drive 20 miles just to hang out. If you need me to babysit so you can go out 5 times a week, sure. No problem. But when it comes to hanging out with me, you're too tired. You also don't know how to pick up a fucking phone. I am not happy with absolutely any of you.